in retrospect.

2008 has been a very good year. according to some, my saturn is returning and major changes heading my way. i think saturn returning started when i made my decision to move to shanghai. and then i got married last year. and then who knows when in the next two years will i decide to move some place else. US maybe? it's in the plans.

over the holidays back in singapore, i have been doing a lot of catching up and thinking. meeting up with friends also means i have to keep them updated with my life, and consequently keeping myself updated on mine. taking stock of my life so far. i suddenly realised i am in a perfectly balanced state, a state of contentment that i haven't felt in a long while. work is routine, predictable, but something that i love and enjoy. money is not a source of worry and i live off my earnings very comfortably. love is at its greatest heights. living in pure bliss every day with my newly wedded husband. my family and friends are doing well, everybody healthy and living out their lives. i cannot help but fear, sometimes, that this is the calm before the storm? but that will be the paranoid side of me resurfacing. with nothing else to worry about, my idle thoughts fight to be heard...*chuckles*

this trip back home helped re-establish bonds and friendships. a short 2 week trip meant making time for people who mean the most to me. it became clear to me who i enjoy spending my hurried holiday time with, and who to give a miss. i think i also made it a more family oriented holiday this time round, trying to spend more time with the family, giving them priority over other meetings. 

coming back home to shanghai (yes i do call it home too), i find myself with a different perspective towards life. call it growing up or whatever you want, but i do know what i have planned ahead and what i want happening in my life. 

so in 2009, i shall channel my energies towards leading a more fulfilling life, spending more time picking up new skills (knitting, crocheting, embroidery), working towards my goal of setting up an online business, saving for my summer holidays in US and planning for my perfect wedding. 

oh yes, and i shall end the year 2009 with a big bang at my "midsummer night's dream wedding" :)