this little exercise is not working out terribly well!

!!!!

i got so caught up with work and meetings today that i completely forgot to do something spontaneous!

then again...I might need to define spontaneity a little, to sort out for myself what exactly counts as an act of spontaneity. does stopping to give a child in school a hug or giving time to chat with a parent count as a spontaneous act? (it might seem little to some but interacting with adults can be terribly arduous for me, because i think i am absolutely boring to talk to. which is also why my job as a teacher is perfect because children are less judging and more embracing.) i am completely comfortable with the children until i have to speak with their parents.

back to definitions. does it have to be something out of the blue and really special, or can it be something ordinary, just not something you would normally do?

dictionary.com defines spontaneities as
1. spontaneous impulses, behaviour, movements or actions
2. spontaneous activities

and defines spontaneous as
1. coming or resulting from a natural impulse or tendency; without effort or premeditation; natural and unconstrained;


in which case have i not only failed to be "spontaneous" but have also suppressed myself when i hesitated to say good morning to the person next to me in the elevator this morning. The words were actually on the tip of my tongue until i decided to swallow them and thought myself a wee bit silly to be "overly friendly".

on a brighter note, now that i am a little more self-aware, i will keep trying.


and i am positive i can only change for the better!